The Dead Pain .

Days, months, years pass by

I still remember how I went through the pain, the sweet pain.

But I don't feel it anymore,

it's just a memory now

which has now faded away.

There's someone, still someone

who is watching me

and catching me when I fall.

When I lose myself,

when I lose all the control,

there's someone who gives me all the love.

Oh someone is there, someone is here.

Oh someone has killed the pain

It doesn't hurt no more

and I feel a lot more .

I believe God sent his favourite angel for me

who makes me smile all the time

and will hold on to me through miles and miles . . . :)

L o v e ?

 Was just going through some randumb quotes and came across the following :
 

" Have you ever been in love ? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life..You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. "

“I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when I lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with eachother;for those were some of the best times of my life.”

“I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside.Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too.. but I'll never know.”

“I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do..I'm sorry I can't help myself, I'm in love with you.”

“ I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken, and the one that could always brighten up your day even if she couldn't brighten her own. "

 

I’m a liar because I wont tell you everything
I’m stupid because sometimes i'm wrong
I’m ugly because my face isn’t perfect
I’m a pushover because I like making people happy
I’m a loser because I’m a not friend with your group
I’m fake because I’m too nice
I’m weird because I’m not like you
I’m fat because I eat when I’m hungry.
I’m clingy because I don’t like to be alone
I’m insecure because I care about what people think of me.
I’m no fun because I'm not always hyper?
Don’t try to tell me who I am

Because,

I already know.

 

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST

Love the people who care about you

and forget about the ones that don't

Take chances and realize that nothing
in life never comes easily.

Sometimes, you just have to stop caring
You have to turn off all emotion & feeling
To protect yourself from getting hurt you
have to stop caring about what other people
Think of you and  be yourself: sometimes
You have to hide it all -- not let anyone
know how you feel or what you think.
You have to put a s m i l e on your face and
Pretend everything is fine . Even when it's not.

:)

Sixteenth birthday. :D

I was born on 25th April 1994 at 6:20 am. ;P


Okay. So i've made a list of sixteen things that I wish to get on my sixteenth birthday.
I know I'd hardly get any of these but still. ;)


1. All Star Green Converse (Size-6) :P 
   I've been searching for them since 1 and a half years and I still can't find them anywhere in this idyaat city.

2. A wish from Suhit Gosain. 
   He wished me last to last year but not after that. :(
   I so wish he does this time. (i.e. On phone)
    It'll really make my day. :)
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE !

3. Cellphone.
    This is one thing which i'll never ever get my life. Not for two years atleast. :(


4. New iPod.
   8 GB apple iPod. :)

5. Family.
     This may sound a lil' weird but my i've never really celebrated my birthdya with my parents. I've never cut a cake with them after 2nd grade. I wish they celebrate it this time. :)






6. Friends.
    I want all my best friends, including the ones' who live miles away or just the next door, to be with me on this day. :)



7. Chocolates.
   Not just any chocolate. The round-round, small-small, something-shaped chocolates. ;) Or maybe a dozen bournville would work too.

8. Deepa Panjwani's Accesories.
    (Only the ones' which will suit me. xP)


9. PiyushMehta'sSouthParkBoxers + Deeksha'sSouthParkTee. xD

   


10. Clothes.
      (A lose tee with Suhit's picture on it and written 'Proud to be a Suhitian' + The Black Nike AIG Tee + Ed Hardy Tee) ;]


11. A Nice Bag. :/ + A Nice Perfume. :P


12.  A huge Chocolate Truffle Cake + Lots of Chocolate Donuts + Chocolate tarts

14.  HIM.
       *Secret* :3 .


15.A tiara. Rofl. + Hell lotta Heart-shaped RedandWhite balloons ;P + Hell lotta roses. :P + THE BIG PINK BUNNY BALLOON (Which you get in MGF) :P
     Not just any other Tiara, a nice sophisticated one with pink stones and stuff. I saw one in Archies but it wasn't so nice. And I have no idea why i've mentioned this wish. :-SS Lmao. I'm going mad. I couldn't get any other picture than these: Rofl. I don't want anything like this: But something different. Idk ! BLEEEEEEH ! I wrote this 'cause I had to complete my list and upload it ASAP! :|

16. I wish the above wishes come true.  :)


And oh oh! Everyone loves SURPRISES. Right? I'm one of them. :P


I know everyone's not so kind hearted to give me all these stuff but anyway I hope everyone doesn't end up giving the same thing. :P

WOAAAH! I didn't know I was so selfish. ;D 


And I know most of the wishes are quite lame, 'cause I didn't know what to wish for so i added any stupid thing. :/

 

Untitled Love.

If I say I miss you,
will you hold me tight
and say I'll never let you go ?!
If I say I love you,
can I keep you forever?


Can't you hear? Can't you see?
I'm waiting for you since then
I'm dying for you every moment.
I cannot bring back the time
but the memories haunt me, now and then.
Why did you do this to me?
You said you'd always be with me, in misery in pain.
Every song I listen, reminds me of you.
Every thing that I do is for you.
I've given up everything.
No, I can't breathe.
Sleepless nights. Endless teas. And a broken heart
..that is all I'm left with.
You broke the bloody heart
and threw the bleeding pieces away.
You don't know how much it kills me to see you.
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much.


I know she's pretty. I know she's much better.
But c'mon, I ain't THAT bad either !
Once and for all,
I'm saying ..I love you
Now, can I keep you forever ?!
P l e a s e ?


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